the precious moment on 10 July 2007

that was really a precious moment for me. really cant remember when the last time I've ever been in that kind of moment. that's small, but truly deep.

sitting around on the paved yard of taman budaya. was listening to , again, played gamelan.after so long time never heard a living play of gamelan, and now it's just in front of my nose.maybe the trance session was just happening.

could't really explain what i was feeling. was just crying inwardly, sensing the eyes getting warm and blurry.

my mind is just full 0f various things dancing around, sometimes just like making my throat chocked-up and breath shortly jammed several times. felt the time just stup running and in a sudden popping up to some-when in years ago. dancing, singing, listening my father among those instruments played by para niyaga.

never consider this as either painful or joyful moment . this is somthing different. close more to peacefulness mingling with many other things. but never be pain, distressed or joyful feeling.it just stands as it is. maybe any person has this kind of stage or moment, which is at the end un-explainable, but quite unique.just dont wanna miss it somehow.

anyone who might haven't been in this kind of moment, just need time to wait. but am sure, it will come ..